TEXTS FROM LAST NIGHT

[sanjunipero]

TEXTS FROM LAST NIGHT

Have a little too much to drink last night and send that embarrassing text to your ex?

Did you party a little too hard and send pictures of the wild night... to all of your contacts?

Was 3am when you dusted off the number of that old flame and confessed how much you wanted them back?

Or simply catching up on the adventures that drunk you got into?

Just because heaven is a place on earth at San Junipero doesn't mean it's without any consequence. Be careful checking your phone in the morning, it might have some weird texts from last night.

MAY BE NSFW

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[corve]

what a life.
don't worry about it.

that's what you think this is? yeah right.

[fucking_kavinsky]

the fuck u actin all high an mighty for? like ur life is so fukin hard? what happened?
u get poor or somethin? life bringin u down?
right. so nothing, then.

yeah man, i see the pattern here.

[corve]

can you read, shitstain?
i said don't fucking worry about it.

and what pattern is that?

[fucking_kavinsky]

riiiight, u give me shit cause u got nothin to say about ur own.
not worried, sweetheart. fuckin amused is more like it.

u start out all one way and then it gets too real for u and u start acting like a little bitch.
thefuck u keeping shit up for then if ur so over it?

[corve]

whatever, man.

[ His phone vibrates in his hand with the second incoming message and Ronan's surprised he hasn't yet completely destroyed the thing -- though, that's probably less to do with caring about the device itself and more to do with the fact that it's his only means of communication with Adam while the boy isn't there with him.

Stupid piece of shit technology that he's now tied to and the stupid piece of shit currently on the other end of his messages. ]

how's this for keeping shit up: fuck off, lose my number, forget my fucking face and go find somebody else to jerk off to at night.

[fucking_kavinsky]

wow, such a good comeback, bet it took u all night to think of that one

[ And yet, Ronan keeps replying to him. Keeps checking his texts even though he knows it's not going to be Adam. Kavinsky's pretty sure Ronan is still a lying person who lies, especially to himself. Nothing changes. ]

awwww truth hurts, don't it, sweetheart. now that i'm back, u can't stop thinkin about it and it fukin kills u cause u know how much u want it. believe me, shitstain, i've moved the fuck on. there hasn't been a single damn thing here that's ever reminded me of u.

[corve]

only half of it, spent the other half thinking up this one: go fuck yourself, kavinsky.

[ He really hates how he can't seem to stop himself from replying to each and every one of Kavinsky's messages. Something about the knowledge of it sitting there in his inbox constantly draws him in, has him rolling over in his bed in the middle of the night to fire off some stupid reply to the boy. ]

who the fuck said any of that shit is the truth? you still think really fucking highly of yourself, huh? don't tell me that you actually believe any of that bullshit coming out of your mouth.
if you've moved the fuck on then why are you still talking to me? if you're so over me, then fuck off already.

[fucking_kavinsky]

ooh maaan. u got me now. drowning in fukin tears, how do i go on.

[He will text Ronan all night. This is fun for him. ]

ur just provin it over and over gain, i dont gotta tell myself shit. ur doin it all for me.
hey, ur the one telling me to fuck off, to lose ur number. i dont give a shit. its fucking funny tho, how u cant stop even after telling me to. i was having a perfectly nice convo with u till u turned it to shit cuz u realized how deep u still are. boo fucking hoo.

[corve]

drowning in your tears? don't get my hopes up, man.

[ Ronan clenches his phone tight enough in his hand that there's probably a real risk of breaking the stupid thing. At least then he would have actually been rid of Kavinsky -- at least until he saw him again. Which he suspected would end up being sooner rather than later.

Neither of them had ever been good at staying away for long.

He's not "still in deep", or whatever Kavinsky was implying -- and truthfully he probably only ever had been for a fleeting moment in his teenage years (for as much as Ronan touted about how truthful he was, he surely enjoyed lying to himself a lot. It was longer than a fleeting moment during his teenage years.) -- he'd hardly thought about the other until he'd found him here and now he's... ]

i'm fucking done with this conversation.

[fucking_kavinsky]

i kno how hard it is for u to get anything up, so i think you'll be alright.

[ Is there ever such a thing as getting rid of Kavinsky? At this point, probably not. He's tried to get rid of himself, so he knows the feeling.

From where Kavinsky's standing Ronan's still in pretty deep. He doubts it'll ever be any different, though he can probably keep lying to himself as well. At least kavinsky doesn't pretend to be truthful, though. ]

this is about the 8th time you've said that, sweetheart. ur lies are showing.

[corve]

[ He's positively fuming by now. Each message of Kavinsky's that flashes across his screen echoes loudly in his head in the boy's voice and only manages to infuriate him even more. He hates that Kavinsky still knows how to get under his skin, how to worm himself into every one of Ronan's thoughts -- awake, asleep, it doesn't matter, Kavinsky's always fucking there.

Like he's traded out one demon for another and he isn't sure which is worse. ]

will you shut the fuck up already? don't you have something else to do with your time?

8 is my lucky number then.
bye, k.

[ And there goes the phone to the other side of the room -- and likely sporting a nice crack down the screen now, too as it collides with the wall. ]

[fucking_kavinsky]

nah, faggot. i could do this alllll night.

[ What else is there to do? he parties all the time, he fucks even more than that, he gets drugged out, drunk, starts fights. On not so bad days he does other shit like fast driving and sometimes surfing, but nothing nothing has ever been better than getting under Ronan Lynch's skin.

So does he have something else to do with his time? Sure. But why? ]

whoooops, looks like it's 9!
sure. till next time then, bitch.

[corve]

[ Hours pass and Ronan completely ignores the unread messages in his inbox. He knows who they're from and, more importantly, he knows that the second he reads them, his fingers will type out a reply and he'll be indulging in Kavinsky's little game again.

But, as the night goes on, Ronan becomes restless. He can't sleep and when he does close his eyes he can't dream -- and, fuck if that's not something he misses, like his own personal escape, a private sanctuary in a place that only a few know about. So he stares at his ceiling and thinks: about Henrietta, about Adam, Gansey, and Blue, about his BMW, about the few remaining red pills hidden away in an old Altoids container in the glovebox, about the white sunglasses hidden even further behind them.

And eventually, as he always does, about Kavinsky.

Snatching his phone up, he types only 2 words, sending them before regret can rear its ugly head and stop him. ]

you up?

[ Weakness in its truest form. How long had he lasted? Four hours? Maybe five? ]

[fucking_kavinsky]

[At first, Kavinsky is furious when Ronan doesn't text back. There's nothing that gets to him more than dismissal. He knows Ronan knows this, so that means the other boy is doing this on purpose and after all this time, after all the damn pretending, it still burns inside of him.

There are no brothers to kidnap here though, no friends he can drug, so he goes out to the back of his house and starts putting together molotovs. One after another, lining them up on the steps of his porch. What he can still do here, is burn Ronan down.

But then what? Kavinsky doesn't even know if there's any punishment here for killing someone who's already dead. Funny enough, he's never gotten to that point here. Then again, killing was never actually Kavinsky's game. Sometimes it just happened. Like with his father, like with Prokopenko.

So he ends up torching his own house instead, then sits there getting wasted while it burns. It's not like there's anything in there he wants anyway. None of it is from his dreams and everything will be right back in it's place by the time the system catches up with the fire. It's sickening.

By the time Ronan texts him back, there's a pretty decently raging fire, and Kavinsky sprawled out on the sand, watching it. As always, the small buzz from his phone catches his attention no matter what he's doing. He pulls his phone out and laughs, then takes a picture of his burning house and sends it to Ronan ]

[corve]

[ Ronan feels far more stupid starin st the screen of his phone anticipating a reply than he had when he'd sent the message itself. What was he hoping for? A pleasant conversation with Kavinsky about current events, or their few (more like many) shared interests? They were rarely ever friendly with one another back when Ronan was a teenager, but as much as he might hate to admit it, Kavinsky's the closest thing he has to a friend in this place.

And if that isn't a depressing thought in itself. The one person that he could consider his "friend" -- and didn't it make him cringe just to think of the words Joseph Kavinsky and His Friend in the same sentence -- was also someone he couldn't stand. Someone who made his skin crawl and his blood boil and his vision go red with fury.

Yet, despite all that, he's waiting with baited breath for a reply from the other.

When it finally comes it takes Ronan a minute to realize exactly what the picture is. A fire, obviously.
But... it was too big to be a bonfire and the structure itself looked vaguely familiar. ]

is that.... your place?

[fucking_kavinsky]

[Were they ever friends? No. Were they every other fucking thing? Probably. Kavinsky once thought it was going to be him and Ronan till the end. He had worked it all out in his head, down to the image of the two of them telling every single other person to fuck off and the two of them walking off into a fire together, like a goddamn sunset or something.

Clearly that did not work out, but apparently he's still trying, even if it's full on denial no matter how it goes. It has to be, this time. He's stuck here. This nightmare won't ever end.

Still, he feels utterly satisfied when Ronan keeps texting him back after telling him he absolutely won't. Small victories. ]

It was almost yours, but I decided ur place didn't deserve a fire this grand.

[corve]

[ Ronan actually rolls over in his bed to peek out of a nearby window, trying to see if he can catch sight of the blaze from. He's not exactly sure how far Kavinsky's house is from his own -- the time that he'd found himself there in the middle of the night, he hadn't paid much attention to just how far of a distance it was from his own home.

But, there's nothing more than the dark night sky, stars twinkling overhead and the dull lights of the strip a short distance away. If the blaze of Kavinsky's house was visible, it seemed like just another neon light in a sea of many.

The response earns a snort of laughter as he rolls back over onto his back, one arm folded under his head as he struggles to text with only one hand --he's not exactly as skilled in the art of is as most 21 year-olds. Ronan and technology were never really on the same page. ]

it's almost like you had a conscience for a second.
i'm touched.

[fucking_kavinsky]

[ Kavinsky hasn't checked out where Ronan's house is either (well, maybe in passing, but he was heading that way already), so he's not sure if Ronan can see the fire, but Kavinsky will be sure to send him all angles off it, in between downing more vodka.

Ronan's slow, but Ronan's always been slow and Kavinsky was always willing to wait, all up until the very end. Now he's being forced to repeat it all, over and over again. ]

yea ur fukin touched in the head.
like id waste my fuking time.

[corve]

[ A few more pictures of the blaze arrive to his phone and he thumbs through them pretty carelessly -- there's something far less adrenaline-inducing about only being able to see the entire thing burning up right before his eyes. -- the same disinterested look that he's so perfectly curated over all of these years.

It doesn't falter even when he's alone. ]

maybe. but what's your excuse then?

having a conscience or burning my house down?

[ Considering Kavinsky literally just said that was almost his plan, but now he wouldn't waste his time? The guy is pretty fucking confusing. ]

[fucking_kavinsky]

[Sucks for Ronan, being so far away from it, when Kavinsky is laying out enjoying the fire on this nice night. If he hadn't been such a piece of shit earlier, maybe he wouldn't having such a lonesome sleepless night right now. ]

sine when do i need an excuse to burn shit down???

both, bitch. but apparently 10 times a charm for u.

[Since Ronan said he wouldnt' be contacting him anymore after the 8th time. There's nothing confusing about this. He had a plan and decided it was a waste of time, waste of energy and waste of whatever shit he might get in afterwards. It's about as straightforward as it gets, unless Ronan is hoping Kavinsky will say something he wants to hear]

u learn my # by heart? how fukin sweet.